Call Out My Name

i knew who i was

where i was
when i was with You
then you took away all
but a flicker of this knowing
blindfolded

and left me out
all alone

in a long, dark night

lost and unconscious
trapped in my self
the knowing that was i
buried deep,

deep somewhere
covered

in layer upon layer of darkness

this flicker

blazed sometimes
when i saw

the face of one i loved
with a love that choked thought
made me forget

everything 

this flicker

flared up sometimes
when i stood enchanted

by the quietest of lakes
in the heart of a red-earth mountain
filled with awe

that felt like unspeakable terror
made me tremble

made me shake

this flicker

became a torch, a light
when a verse of poetry

a verse of prayer
squeezed and wrenched

and tore my heart
made me yearn for something

i could not name

the night is still dark

the flicker a flame
dancing ahead

playing hide and seek
with each step that i walk

towards this light
the path behind

closes forever
even if i wanted

there is no way back
and ahead

the night is my path
stretched out

forever

speak to me

give me a sign:
call out my name

please! 

call out my name!

28^th may 2010

shahbano aliani 

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