I Want To Be Lost

I Want To Be Lost

i want to be lost

in love again

like the first moment

we met

in this life

sprouting wings

feeling i can fly

anywhere

never fail

never fall

or hurt myself

because i’m falling

falling

falling

in love

only Love

behind the translucent

wings on my back

reflected

in the clear mirror of your eyes

are twisted knots

of ancient pain

yours,

not apart

from mine

stirring languidly

below

the lightness

the brightness

the joy

a heavy

bitter murkiness

woven deep

into the soul

wash it clean!

wash it clean!

terrifying anguish

unspeakable brutality

have been

ours

and i can no longer tell

this ours apart

the powerful

being drawn to you

is to my self

is for my Self

and freedom

for us both,

forgiveness

for us all

20^th november 2011